After a few of you made comments on my blog posts about my writing ability, I decided I would go ahead & write that book I’ve been wanting to write since I was 12! I want to take a minute to thank you all for the encouragement & kind words because it was exactly what I needed to get me started.
I wish I would’ve written down the exact day I started. But I never think to do that until after something is completed. Example…taking “before” pictures of anything. My pictures always start “in processes”. I guess I would say I started a month ago, give or take a day. And today I reached the finish line. It has just been uploaded to amazon.com & I am waiting on word that it is done processing & is available for purchase.
My book is titled Follow A Certain Path. Not only is the title poignant to my story, it is poignant to the process it took me through. Writing is not as easy as it sounds. I had all these ideas in my head. Most of them had been in there for years. But as I sat down to start, my brain would progress faster than my fingers could type! And I wanted to say so much, but couldn’t put it all into actual words. My story kept playing out in my mind like a movie, but I couldn’t WRITE the dialogue. I got so frustrated. So there came the first “I give up!” moment. But the next day more ideas developed for my characters, it started to get a bit tragic & I was creating some good drama, so I had to sit down again & write it out.
Then I got busy with every day life & it just had to sit a few days. I didn’t even think about it. I didn’t want to think about it because I knew I’d have the same problem I had the week before…so much to say, but it was so hard to get it into words on the computer. “I give up” moment #2.
That brings us to this week. I run a daycare from my home, but this week it just worked out that I only had to work 1/2 days all week long. I actually had Monday completely off. I decided to sit down, take advantage of this rare quiet time & get this thing finished once & for all! I wrote all day long & aside from a few edits, I completed it. I was so happy to be DONE, but then came the doubts. It’s to simple, juvenile almost. No one will want to read this. Worse yet, what if they read it & think it’s hideous! “I give up” moment #3.
I had sent a synopsis in to a publishing house 2 weeks ago & on Wed. I got an acceptance letter from them saying they loved my short story & would love to publish it. I was ecstatic! It wasn’t bad! Someone from an actual publishing house LIKED it! I was beside myself. But wait…that was too easy. Wasn’t it? I only sent in the 1st portion of my story & they were saying they wanted to publish it without edits. I read further down the letter: To publish with us, our packages start out at $6000.00. Agh. There it is. They want me to pay THEM to publish my book. That doesn’t sound right! So I did a little research online & low & behold, they were a real publishing company, but one that will publish anything. Probably would publish the phone book if ya sent it to them…along with $6000.00. “I give up!” moment #…where are we? Oh yes, 4.
But that last “give up” moment only lasted an hour. I was mad! I felt that my book was actually pretty descent. It had a good solid story line, just needed a few tweeks to the details & I needed a better ending. I’ve come this far…I didn’t want to give it all up now. Not when I was so close to finishing. So today I went back & I made all the improvements to the story, made up a cover for the book & I self published it on Amazon.com. It will be downloadable on Kindle, ipad, ipod & any computer by tomorrow morning. I think this will be a good way to get my story out there & get some great feedback from REAL people. Not people who are trying to rip naive newbie writers off!
I’m proud of myself. This book was a long time coming for me. And it’s a big accomplishment. Even it if isn’t a literary success, I will always be proud of the fact that I did NOT give up when I was discouraged like I sometimes do. Instead I carried on & followed through down my certain path. That is the best gift writing this book has given me!